Friday, March 28, 2014

Welcome. A Brief Introduction

Hail and welcome to my humble blog. This is more or less a test post so I can properly finish editing the look and feel of things, but I thought I'd take a moment to briefly introduce myself to those whom I am but a stranger and give you an idea of what this is all about and what purpose it serves.

My name is Samantha Elyse. I will be 27 on June 1st of this year. I've seen and experienced many things in my life, most of which were frightfully unpleasant, but I'd like to think it all has made me stronger.

I write copious amounts of mostly worthless material ranging from song lyrics to novels (although I can't boast that I've ever actually finished a novel.. still working on my first). Writing, for some reason, is the only thing I seem to be able to do decently well without much effort.

I love metal. I absolutely ADORE power metal. Among my favorite bands are Kamelot (when Roy Kahn was their vocalist, Karevik is good but can never replace him), Nightwish (again, only in the era of their original singer Tarja Turunen, one of my main inspirations for becoming a vocalist), Amon Amarth, Apocalyptica (because cellos are fucking beautiful), Epica (Simone Simons being my other main influence and inspiration to sing), Dimmu Borgir, Behemoth, Immortal, Opeth, Katatonia, Draconian, Swallow the Sun, Candlemass, Nile, Finntroll, Carach Angren, Dark Tranquility, Therion, In Flames, Arch Enemy, Darkest Hour, Octavia Sperati, Goatwhore, Korpiklaani, Angra, Kalmah, Dark Moor, Devin Townsend, Blind Guardian, Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath.. you know what? I'm just going to stop here because I could easily fill a couple of pages listing ALL my favorite bands. In short, metal sets my spirit free. It heals. It empowers. It's introduced me to some of the coolest, most creative and all-around awesome people.

I am a witch. I don't like to talk much about my spirituality because my belief system is vastly complex and hard to explain. I'll go into it another time, maybe. Suffice it to say that for me, seeing is believing, and with the discernable evidence of death and rebirth constantly unfolding before us in the changing of seasons, and thanks to positive outcomes from spiritual work I have done, I have all the proof I need to believe what I believe. When I half-assedly concocted the blog title, I had in mind not only showing respect for Iron Maiden but also because the "Maiden, Mother, Crone" forms of the divine feminine was for some reason at the top of the pile of accessible information in my brain. In hindsight, I probably should've gone with Metal Mother as opposed to Maiden.. but this makes me feel more youthful. Therefore, I'm gonna roll with it.

I'm a vocalist. I sing classical soprano and contemporary style. Every now and again when I'm alone, I'll dabble a bit into harsh metal vocals, but being a soprano it's a little tricky to sustain a decent growl for long. Perhaps I'll master it one day, perhaps not. I'm in a band called Momentum Void, although as they are fresh off a hiatus things are slow going at present. I have been working on a side project currently under the name Hypoxia. The material I've been writing for it is mainly gothic ambient/heavy gothic metal with melody and elements of prog and death thrown into the mix (at least I think, I've never been an expert with genres), backed by clean and occasionally operatic vocals. I want it to be as emotionally powerful as I can muster, to see if I can get whoever listens to it to feel the immense highs and burgeoning lows that I feel every day in the form of the music I've always clamoured to write. That's been dragging a bit as well due to lack of equipment and a current financial inability to procure what I need.

This is, of course, partly due to the fact that I am a stay-at-home mother to my son, Dorian. He was the happy accident my boyfriend Ryan and I had after being told over several years that I was infertile due to some chronic health issues I have. We had only been together perhaps four or five months when I saw the stick turn positive and subsequently fell to the floor in shock. Fate, it seemed, had finally decided she owed me something good and repaid all my past miseries in the form of an unbelievably supportive, helpful, patient, strong, loyal, loving, and handsome bearded drummer boyfriend and my new darling little boy, flesh of our flesh. Unfortunately, it was still served with a side of difficulty.. those chronic health issues made my pregnancy unbearable and recovery arduous. They also make it next to impossible for me to find or maintain employment. It's not like it couldn't be done, but it couldn't be done now while our son is so little (he'll be five months in two or three weeks).

Not that I'm in any hurry to get back into the workforce - the last job I had was as an Accounting Clerk at the US House of Reps. I was the most productive employee in my department, came in at 5 am every morning and stayed until ungodly hours in the late afternoon and sometimes evenings and YES! even weekends. They repaid my hard work, loyalty and dedication by letting me go for absolutely no good reason whatsoever. After that experience, I became a bit bitter towards the traditional working world. I just never seemed to be able to find a place for me within it.

I keep discovering how little I know every day, but I do know this: I am PASSIONATE about music. I am PASSIONATE about singing. Metal is my life and it has saved my life. I am truly lucky to be alive and in this world, in this moment. There is beauty in everything, even the darkest and most desolate places. Writing and singing is the only therapy I'll ever need. I really lucked out with an awesome man, and I'm even luckier because I can appreciate him even more after stupidly suffering several years of abuse with an ex. I love my son. I still can't believe that I could've created something so complex and beautiful with so few ingredients. Being happy really is a choice, and one that's sometimes made easier the less money you have. Some people are crazy. Some people are stupid. Some people are bewilderingly creative and fucking amazing. Time goes by so fast. Kittens are adorable. Pizza is delicious. And pot always helps.

Now, to address the issue of what this blog will contain. I don't necessarily have a specific plan in place for content. Not gonna lie. I will likely post of metal things, vocalist things, mommy things.. whatever. If I have a strong opinion I will express it, since we all are entitled to our opinions. Aren't we? I may even post lyrics to songs I've completed, short stories, poetry/prose or any commissioned lyrical work that I feel compelled to share. The main reason I created this blog was to keep my writing as sharp as possible by having an easy avenue I can use to proliferate my scribblings. So, if you enjoy it, AWESOME! You're also awesome. If it helps anyone or provokes healthy debate, equally awesome! And if you don't like it, well.. that just sucks for you I guess. Either way, I'm gonna post stuff. Sorry.

And there you have it! Introduction complete. Have a phenomenal day :)

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